HARDEST VIDEO I EVER FILMED | DESI PERKINS



HARDEST VIDEO I EVER FILMED | DESI PERKINS
HARDEST VIDEO I EVER FILMED | DESI PERKINS
This is a long one....but it all needed to be said. I hope this video helps anyone that's going through something similar, and to know that you're not alone. I also hope this video educates anyone who doesn't know how pregnancy questions could affect someone who's dealt or dealing with a stillbirth, miscarriages, infertility & any other pregnancy complications. Extending all my love to all of those who are suffering. Know that I'm here with you ❤️


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  • 🙌❤❤❤❤ such a beautiful soul! Xxxxxxxx
  • Just the same way God blesses Hannah with a son he can do the same with you! Believe desi we love you 💖
  • I'm an ultrasound tech & this really touches me.. A lot of mamas come in with miscarriages and I always try to be the most support person that I can for them. It's such a vulnerable time for the moms. I always try them to help with cleaning up after the exams & bring them warm blankets, water, whatever helps ease them a little. It's a difficult subject but it happens more than people talk about. This is such a needed video Desi <3 Keep your head up girl!! It'll happen when it's meant to be. I had a mom try for 6 years & she finally got pregnant then she started crying out of joy when she saw the baby on the monitor &I got to share that moment with her which was so special
  • ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
  • I keep coming back to this video for motivation... but my husband & I are currently trying to get pregnant and it’s not happening. It’s hard for me to pretend to be happy when it’s literally all I think about. Thank you for being so open about this, Desi!
  • You said in this video you hope that this video will help people. Today i went to a doctors appointment after finding out i was pregnant about a month ago. I went into the appointment with nerves but high hopes. Went into my ultrasound and new instantly that things did not look right. The ultra sound tech said, " hold on i need to figure out whats going on here." It took her a while but i already knew what they were going to say. This is the third time i have misscarried. So many emotions and thoughts take over at this point...but today i felt numb. J think even the Doctors were expecting much more. I left the hospital and it hit me...i could not bring myself to return to work. I came home and did not know what to do with myself. So i did what i always used to do....decided to turn on yourtube and watch tutorials. Already being a big fan i decided to check out your page and see what new content you had. This was the video that popped up first. I am glad you posted it. I would never wish this on you, and i will keep you in my prayers. I am very thankful however that you posted this....so many of us feel the sting that you feel when we hear those comments and identify with the fwelings you feel. I would never have the bravery to discuss what ive gone through and to do it on such a public platform is admirable. Thank you so much for sharing yourself with the world!
  • im am so supporting you in everything you do
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  • Desi you are such a strong and beautiful person and you constantly bring others so much joy, it is so hard to see you hurting like this. Just know that we appreciate how brave you were in sharing these feelings with us and making this video. I believe that you and Steven are destined to be amazing parents and I can’t wait to see your family grow. Sending so much love, positive thoughts and prayers your way 💜
  • Thank you so much for being brave and making this video. I’m praying for you and Steven to get pregnant at the perfect time. God’s plans are always better than ours and the most powerful thing you can do is to believe his promises. He’s the one who placed our desires in us , so he made you with the desire of having a family and I believe he wouldn’t do that if he wasn’t going to fulfill that desire. I’ve always wanted to be a mom and have a family too, SO strongly. Ive also always had the fear that maybe I couldn’t get pregnant. I just got married a couple months ago and we want to start a family, but a part of me is scared to REALLY try and plan and put effort, because what if? My mom had a miscarriage before me, like you said it’s so common, but no one deserves to go through that. Your story really touched me and I just wanted to say thank you for being real Desi ❤️
  • I send you all my positive energy and a big big hug honey. I love you 💖💖💖💖🙏🌟🤞
  • Sending love always.
  • My aunt tried for ten years to get have a baby because she kept miscarrying. She had five miscarriages. Then she finally had a healthy baby boy. A year later she had a healthy baby girl. A few years after that she had another healthy baby boy. And two years ago she had another healthy baby boy. She's 42 now. She was 30 when her eldest was born. Sometimes we struggle to start a family. We suffer loss. And heartbreak. And my heart goes to all those out there that have to go through such a rough time. I hope that, like my aunt, it happens for you.
  • Your so amazing! Keep your faith strong! I had 4 miscarriages and have two beautiful girls! You should look into a herb called dong qui it helped me i swear by it .. also more progesterone helps too! But everyone is different I wish you the best babe ! 💕🙏🏼
  • You poor thing! I am so sorry you are having to go through this. Sending you guys so much love <3
  • I haven’t even finished watching this yet but I just have to say you are such a strong women. I know that doesn’t help you but lord, the people you have just helped maybe even saved at your own expense is impossible to gage at this point. You truly are courageous. You have all my love and support.
  • I am by no means a fan. BUT. My heart goes out to you. I can’t imagine going through something like this. I got pregnant at 19 by total surprise after a one night thing.. and I realize I’ve taken that for granted. If you feel you’re meant to be a mom. You will be. One way or another. Praying for you, sending a virtual hug your way.
  • Gods gonna get you though it what ever problem u have give it to God and he’ll work them out cuz I seen him do it may the lord put peace on yous keep the faith
  • Awwww, babe! I’m new-ish and had no idea, that this happened, I’m so sorry❤️ Even though I am very young, this video meant a lot to me. It made me feel like, I’m not alone. It made me think about, the fact that there is always somebody that understands how you’re feeling. I’m sure that this video helped someone! Also, I’m just going to say what everybody is thinking: YOU’RE GOING TO BE THE BEST MOM EVER! Once this blessing does come upon you, we will all be soooo happy for you, and it will be amazing! But until then, do your thing girl! Because we love you and support you, pregnant or not❤️ Btw, your babies will be the cutest!💛💛💛😉
  • This IS going to happen for you. I know this. I feel this. The timing hasn’t came but it’s coming & I am so excited for whenever that time may be & when it comes. Love you & Steven.
  • Desi, you’re amazing ❤️ thank you for sharing. You’re not alone 😊
  • I have trouble trying to watch your video because I had the same problem. My husband and I struggled for years trying to get pregnant. One day after 11 years I decided that I was okay in my heart to accept what I believe it was god’s will. 3 months later I got pregnant ! I know what you feel? The pain so difficult to explain, family and friends always asking you when? I never opened up about my fertility problems with no one. Now I have a beautiful girl, I don’t want you to lose hope... our miracle it took almost 12 years to became a reality, I know that it will happen to you too. Thank you for sharing your story, for having the courage to speak up about something that is so hard and personal. Gracias y muchos besitos
  • Thank you so much for sharing your story. You aren't alone 💛 when i was thirteen I has one of my tubes removed because it was blocked with fluid and punctured. The doctor told my family that there was still a probability I could get pregnant but that it would be difficult and i would be at a higher risk of losing the baby. I hadn't thought much about it until recently when I had really considered my future and the possibility of stsrting a family. I too, knew that all i ever wanted in life was to be a mom. Although I knew I wasn't ready to have a child, I secretly hoped I was and when i would eventually get my period I would be extremely depressed. You aren't alone, Desi. Your truth is going to help so many others. I wish you and steven all the best and what is meant to be will be 💛
  • Hey listen i know its hard for u and ur husband filming this ,i dont know when u will have babies bt im sure you will be a great mother just let ppl talk ,you know they talk if u dont have child they say wheres ur baby and when u already have they say wheres ur second?!!so its your life u dont need to explain and one thing:next time when you get pregnant dont say enyone and dont let enyone know even hide ur body as much as u can believe me its the best thing you can do before childbirth like kylie (my grandma sais its keeping u and ur baby from getting hurt)i dont believe that bad omen eyes exist bt i believe in bad energies. dont open up ur life for thousands ppl if theyre fans they will understand
  • This is so so hard to deal with... my mom had three different miscarriages between my siblings and I. It is truly so so hard but God has a plan for everyone. I’ve heard just tracking your cycle will help you familiarize yourself with what your body goes through and the feelings you get each month. You’ll start to realize patterns and that will help. But I truly believe God will bless you two with a beautiful baby.
  • You’re such a beautiful person, inside and out and I know you will be an amazing, caring and loving mother one day. 💕
  • Coming back 3 months after this video because I’m going thru the same things and I’m trying to find strength in your strength. You are not alone desi, I pray for you and this struggle quite frequently, especially since I have been going through this for the past year. I know how you feel and all the emotions and thoughts that run thru your head. God be with you, to give you strength and love and happiness. Thank you for opening up your heart, it means so much to know you’re not alone in a situation like this. So much love for you and Steven.❤️❤️
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  • Have you checked your thyroid gland levels?very often the reason for not getting pregnant easy or miscarriages i
  • What a great team you and your husband make. Wishing you future blessings. So nice to know you have such good people in your life 🌺
  • I just found you tonight on YouTube. This is the 3rd video I have watched and my heart breaks for you. I am so sorry you are going through this. Keep your head up. It Will Happen!!! You guys are in my prayers.
  • May God be with you... you will have a baby soon... trust no body but God
  • Thank you for making this. You aren't alone ❤️
  • Holà Desi , te quiero agradecer por este vídeo . Eres tan fuerte y tu experiencia me hace pensar en la mía. Creo que este vídeo es una manera de sentirte aliviada. Como te digo, tu historia se parece muchísima a la mía. Para mi fue un momento devastador de pasar por heza fase en mi vida. Mi pareja y yo pasamos años tratando de caer embarazada. Y nada... hasta un día que funcionó . En ese momento lo anunciamos a todos ! Familia, amigos etc... Nueve semanas más tarde lo perdí. Ese día fue la más difícil de mi vida. En ese momento cerré la puerta de mi corazón . Una amiga estaba embarazada al mismo tiempo, yo trabajaba con mujeres embarazadas y recién nacidos , todo el mundo esperaba tanto ese baby. Ya habíamos comprado una casa y esperábamos llenarla de hijos. Pero después de tanto tiempo ... ya estaba cansada de luchar. Meses más tarde fuimos a ver un especialista. .... bueno varios.... hasta que encontré LA BUENA persona para ayudarnos. Hablo de una PERSONA cuando me refiero a mi especialista. Porque tienes que sentirte confortable en la clínica que vallas. Mi Dr es alguien de humano que me entendió desde día 1. Allí fue que volví a abrir mi corazón. En mi cabeza una mujer nace para dar a nacer. Y yo ? Porque no puedo ?! Quizás no nací para ser madre. Quizás nací para amar los hijos de los demás. Quizás no es para mi. Porque yo ? Me volví obsesionada y no quería acercarme a niños o estar cerca de una mujer embarazada. Es horrible y te entiendo muy bien . Quisiera decirte que todo va salir bien. Pero sólo DIOS sabe y el elije sus mejores soldados para los peores combates. Te deseo salud y mucha suerte.
  • I am crying like HELL right now
  • You are truly an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story! Sending hugs your way.
  • I honestly couldn't finish watching this, I seriously couldn't even see the video through all of my tears. Wow, I pray you someday will have the family you deserve. Your so amazing. GOD BLESS!!!
  • Hey sweetie! I just want to give you a little hope! Not one but 2 of my relatives were told by doctors that they couldn’t get pregnant. But they still tried and they were still disappointed every month for years and then... out of the blue... they both managed to get pregnant! Even though they were told they never would be able to conceive and that medication wouldn’t help! They got pregnant on their own! I know how heartbreaking it is for you right now and I will be praying for you sweet girl! Keep your head up! Much love! 😘
  • Hi Desi I'm still grieving for the lost of my baby. I had a miscarriage 4 weeks ago and it was the first time we ever had a positive test (after 5 years of marriage). It has been the hardest thing I've ever gone through. Your video has helped me feel understood. Thank you for talking about because it is a topic not many share. Please don't feel embarrassed because it is not your fault. I will keep you and your husband in my prayers and hope you will receive a little blessing.
  • I think about you and this video often.. I hope we can get an update soon!
  • Please try MACA capsules this is a natural supplement that helps people with fertility problems. It’s a root from Peru. I’m so sorry this happened and truly wishing you the best!
  • Stay strong! ❤️
  • Take Alani Nu balance supplements. I heard that helps with fertility. It’s from Katy Hearn and Hayden’s line. It has amazing reviews and a lot of it was about women becoming fertile and it covered acne
  • This hit home so so much. I have felt so sad and alone and I feel everything you feel. I've been so heartbroken and sad and had a feeling I was definitely pregnant when I wasn't. I had a miscarriage also and it's so sad. I always wonder if I can't get pregnant again also. Thank you for sharing.
  • God will bless you with a baby 👶🏼💕
  • Sending so much love your way Desi. Thank you for sharing your story.
  • You’re so brave ❤️ I cried the whole video, it will happen for you 🙏🏻
  • why do you talk like that
  • That was heartbreaking. I hope all your dreams will come true ❤️❤️❤️
  • I cried the whole video. I'm sorry Desi, you deserve all the happiness in the world.

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